walking with the elder deadnighht-mare gods you feed my diseaseswe have lost our reverence and we've lost our puritysovereign grace has poisoned uslove has changedgiven up without a fightlearn the words they say reciteyou killed the flowerthat blossoms in the nighti have so many facesim so tiredi wont lasti ripped out my eyes trying to learn how to see you.starving with dreamswhat silence creates"lose yourself for a moment with meand be free"can you smell my fear?i will know my demons namesconquer themfightmy coming salvationthis is my holy waryou said goodnightand left me wide awakei-i dont feel so gooddon't feel justifiedsweet messiah of paperi bring you my sacrifice my offeringof suffering.dont go dont leave!it's so much darker without you herethe fearwill swallowme.
what happens here stays hereif i'm a danger to myself just think what i could do to you
you're so lovely when you crylost in flightpretty desperateshivering and cold[h-havnt eaten in days]shh little brotherdont tell anyonethey cant knowiim sick and waningterrified of gaining to feel emptyis to feel invisible.i i cant breathe through it allfeeling so easylove the hungerthis pain, it never gets oldmake me skin and bonesi cant remember the last time i've seen my own eyesor the color of my skindo you know what it's liketo feel ugly all the time?cover the mirrors to hide from the monster i seethe hybrid creature staring back at me.i dont need your helpi've done just fine by myselfthis is whatt i wantto disappearjust like everything, is slowly going, everything i once held dearmy hands are getting just too shaky to holdhunger hurts, but starving it worksneed to find my sanctuary s-someplace safegotta get this out of methis is my escapeand if i feel god judging meill look into his face, straight into the lieas i commit suicide,slowslowslow-ly
self-destructionthey say the body's a templei choose to sacrificedevilsspeak angelsweepat my secret appetitesa crack in the heartwhere the poison spills ini will suffer so you wonti will suffer so you wontmy heart starts reactingmy soul starts collapsingim dancing with fire againim burning im bleeding the parasites are breedingit's me versus me versus themsometimes i sit and ask myselfwhathavei become?something's t-taking over messomething'stakenoverme.
oh, so surrealshe plays the part of the prey, she plays the part of the meat."pprove to mee i exxist"she's got a pen, a fist that no one feelsaand i swear by my sin- loving soul[i-i'm nott paranoiid, ddont fuckinng ccall me crazzy i i ssee youur eeyes, hearr thhe drripping demmons, thhey knnow youu fuckking liie]now this silence, clanging inside my headnever feeel, empty people, empty steeplesif there was a god above,he'd have let me die instead.
you try being fucking uglyi wish i didnt knowwhat i knowi wish i could pretendlike they do.if i could,i wouldsmileand forget.there are some things thatpeople just shouldn't see in lifeoh sweet goddess of narcotics on my knees i prayjust give me one more dose..and make it all go awayymakemecompletelynumb and dumb[jjust nndumb mme dowwn]tired of being tired sick of being sick tired of being tired sick of being sickjust as well they never seethe hate that's in your headdon't they know they're making loveto one already dead?tell me what would you dowhat you do?if he had done that to you.what would yyou dothese demons ddemons screaming in my faceiif only you didnt know[come onfeed it through my veinssweet.......oblivion ]
i can never lose itwhy show your pain to someone who does not understand?there's noairto breathe.beat the voices outout of us.never allowed to obtain the power of faithleft in the water,i'll drown
Painstaking.ly Process.ed"I'll write this all down for you," I said, "I'll put it in a story."I don't know if that's what he wanted to ask me, but it's some-thing everybody wants-for someone to see the hurt done to them and set it down like it matters.
old testamentKing Davidfelt his bones grow oldfrom the hand of Godweighing down on him.it hurts to find outnothing is truly minethat i have nothing